Geri Halliwell thinks her father`s death drove her to become famous
The singer`s dad Laurence Francis Halliwell died in 1993, when Geri was 21. She was left devastated by his passing, and still struggles to talk about it.
The 37-year-old joined the Spice Girls in 1994, and has revealed it was the loss of Laurence which made her desperate to become a star. She had a void in her life she was trying to fill, and sometimes wonders what her life would have been like had her father not died when she was young. "It took me a long time to grieve for him as well, because going straight into the Spice Girls, sometimes I don`t think I would have been famous if it wasn?t for my father`s death because the pain of it, it was so painful and in the western world, when somebody dies, we don?t have that, we`re so formal nobody knew how to comfort me and I didn`t know how to express it either," she told British interviewer Piers Morgan. "So I just turned all that pain into, ?Right, I?m going to make it.` And it wasn?t until I left the band, I think that`s when I started to really feel how much I missed him."
The grief is still raw for Geri, and constantly wishes her father was around to see her achievements. She is now mother to three-year-old daughter Bluebell, and become a parent has made her even more aware of what she is missing.
"I?m absolutely gutted that I don`t have a father in my life. Sometimes I think, when I`m confused about what decisions to make in life, I wish I had that fatherly role model to guide me," she explained.
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